As of today (the 25th) it is one month until I leave for Washington, D.C.! Isn't that crazy? All of this planning and time and thinking is finally coming to an actual experience! I'm am so excited, but as some of you know, scared.
It is actually 4 weeks and 2 days until I leave for Washington, and 2 days after that I leave for Bulgaria. It is 1 day until I go to Abilene, (where I will see many of the people that are important for the last time before I go), 8 days until Jenna comes to visit, about 3 weeks until Matt comes home, and then we will have about 9 days to hang out together before I leave. I feel like all of a sudden my life has turned into a bunch of numbers converted into days and weeks, waiting until I leave. But those numbers are going to be filled with so much change-so much, that I am hesitant to approach them. Hesitant to live through them.
But I know they will come and they will be great! This is what this time in my life is about; endings and beginnings. How could I not go forward?
And I'm scared to leave because it is going to be so different. When I interviewed for the Peace Corps, my recruiter told me about this one girl who was in her group to go to Honduras and didn't even make it past pre-departure! She went home before the group even left the States! When I first heard that story I thought that girl was crazy! How could she put so much time and effort into this and then turn back without even trying? Now that I'm here, I can sort of see her point of view. It is scary. But what else is life than a series of scary moments? Isn't it those moments that make us who we are? Because even though we are so scared, we go forwad because we know we will be fine-much more, we will succeed-because God is with us and guiding us.
Disclaimer: I usually don't really talk much to people about what God is to me. I prefer to show them, for me, thats just easier. So this post feels sort of awkward to put out for all the world to see, but it's how I feel right now, and I think that is important for me to share.
*Also, I'm aware that this post is full of some cliche sayings. Get over it.
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3 comments:
I can only imagine being on the brink of a completely new chapter of my life. GOD will do some amazing things and show you some amazing things while you are away. And I plan on being there (electronically) through every part!!
I enjoyed hanging out last weekend!
peace
Hello Sarah!
We are two of your fellow trainees in B24. We look forward to meeting you in Arlington.
By way of introducing ourselves, you are welcome to visit our blog at http://bulgariafortwo.blogspot.com/
Richard & Shirley
Hey! I'm looking forward to meeting you. I can't believe it's only 4 days. Don't worry because we are all in the same boat and I know I have no idea what I'm doing :)
Have a safe trip to Arlington!
Sasha
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